happy birthday!!!! you're 23 now...
i wish that...
(1. we could be together again)
2. you receive the [material] gift that you want
3. you'll be able to celebrate with your family and friends
4. you're happy...
i wanna give you a hug and a kiss... i wanna give you [again] the most precious gift that i {could} [have] give[n] you... but a part of me shouts that you don't want those things anymore. i don't want to release all my angst today. it is, after all, your birthday. you do not need to hear these feelings inside me. one day i'll write them down. but not today. today is your day. i'm happy and i'm sad. i'm happy coz another year has been added to your life. i'm sad coz it's another year without me in it. but believe me, i am trying really really hard to be happy for you today. i dismiss all the hurting thoughts in my head, and try to think of how we celebrated your past three birthdays. we were really happy then, weren't we? but those memories also bring tears to my eyes and stab deeper in my heart. i badly want them to happen again. i want to greet you personally. i want to celebrate with you. i want to share your happiness. i want to make you feel that this is your day and yours alone. i want you...
i not only want to say happy birthday. i also want to say i love you still. you may have (or as the facts prove, you already have) someone else now. but it doesn't make me love you less. you don't want to hear from me. but it doesn't make me love you less. you have probably threw away all the things that remind you of me. but it doesn't make me love you any less. it's been almost a year since i last saw you, since i last heard from you. but it doesn't make me love you any less.
i love you. i love you still. very much...
they all tell me to move on with my life. "he has moved on," they say. but i know it will take me years to move on. and i know that i will always love you, that you will always be in my heart. i love you. i love you....
happy birthday!!
i love you...='(
i wish that...
(1. we could be together again)
2. you receive the [material] gift that you want
3. you'll be able to celebrate with your family and friends
4. you're happy...
i wanna give you a hug and a kiss... i wanna give you [again] the most precious gift that i {could} [have] give[n] you... but a part of me shouts that you don't want those things anymore. i don't want to release all my angst today. it is, after all, your birthday. you do not need to hear these feelings inside me. one day i'll write them down. but not today. today is your day. i'm happy and i'm sad. i'm happy coz another year has been added to your life. i'm sad coz it's another year without me in it. but believe me, i am trying really really hard to be happy for you today. i dismiss all the hurting thoughts in my head, and try to think of how we celebrated your past three birthdays. we were really happy then, weren't we? but those memories also bring tears to my eyes and stab deeper in my heart. i badly want them to happen again. i want to greet you personally. i want to celebrate with you. i want to share your happiness. i want to make you feel that this is your day and yours alone. i want you...
i not only want to say happy birthday. i also want to say i love you still. you may have (or as the facts prove, you already have) someone else now. but it doesn't make me love you less. you don't want to hear from me. but it doesn't make me love you less. you have probably threw away all the things that remind you of me. but it doesn't make me love you any less. it's been almost a year since i last saw you, since i last heard from you. but it doesn't make me love you any less.
i love you. i love you still. very much...
they all tell me to move on with my life. "he has moved on," they say. but i know it will take me years to move on. and i know that i will always love you, that you will always be in my heart. i love you. i love you....
happy birthday!!
i love you...='(
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