apple has a new boyfriend now. i remember we were in the process of healing our broken hearts at the same time. but she has moved on. what's my status? she has a new boyfgriend now. even before her la sallite bf, there have been other guys. but mark angelo's the only one who became official. what's my status?
my insecure self is alive again. it's alive although i'm still not sure of what i would or should feel about apple having a new boyfriend. i should be happy for her, i know. i am happy for her. especially now that i remember who her past bf is. she really is better off with someone else. besides, i don't want any of my closest friends to end up with that type of a peson (sorry apple!). bu then i can't help but ask why does she have a bf already? is it because she's better at moving on? is it because i don't meet as many people as she does? is it because i'm unattractive? (presenting my insecure self!)
avoiding LA (our tennis lessons should start tomorrow but oh well..), i asked jc if boys take into consideration the girl's success or status in life. like would they choose a barista over a med student. he said yes coz [if] he loves the former. i said no love yet, just mere prospect. he answered by saying that currently he's trying to pursue a model (meaning karyl) and he's just a plain houseboy (harhar!). so then i asked myself, if they don't consider the status or success what do they consider? the obvious answer? physical appearance. boys (not men).
apple is beautiful. but am i not? i've been an ugly duckling all my life. i guess there will never come a time that i'll turn into a beautiful swan...
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