you were never really gone. you still have my contact numbers, i still have yours. i know what's keeping you busy in your life, you know what's keeping me preoccupied. from time to time, you ask about my family and i ask about yours. you were not visible, but you were never really gone.
you cross my mind, maybe a couple of times a month. whenever i see things that remind me of you: chess. UP jacket. medal. cadbury. fireworks. i know i've told you more than once that i want to see you and that i miss you. maybe it's just a part of me who regrets not spending that much time with you before. plus the fact that i want to apologize for any "mistreatment" i may have (unconsciously) done. now, as i look back, the irritation i felt was baseless. i should have been touched and overwhelmed. is it too late to tell you that now?
my mom likes you, you know. right from the very moment i told her about you and how you've stand up for your faith despite your young age. she doesn't remember some of my friends from highschool whom i've been friends with for ages. but she remembers you.
i'm amazed at how you are able to juggle your time for your studies, work, and obligations in the church.
when i asked about your love life, you joked about me not saying yes to you back in college. i normally would have let it just pass since you did say that it was a joke. but a part of me was bothered. maybe because i know, subconsciously, that if you were to "court" me now, it will be a whole different thing. back then, i didn't know the things i know now. i wasn't that experienced and learned when it came to relationships. not that i am an expert now, coz i still do have lots to learn. it's just that, now, i've become more appreciative of people around me knowing that they may be gone before you know it.
i would love to see you now and spend longer time sharing stories. i haven't seen you for like three years, i think. and we seldom did see each other the two years before that (when i was still in UP). i wonder if you still look the same, if you still talk the same way, if you still flashes your smile like you used to do. find time in your busy sched, ok? =)
you cross my mind, maybe a couple of times a month. whenever i see things that remind me of you: chess. UP jacket. medal. cadbury. fireworks. i know i've told you more than once that i want to see you and that i miss you. maybe it's just a part of me who regrets not spending that much time with you before. plus the fact that i want to apologize for any "mistreatment" i may have (unconsciously) done. now, as i look back, the irritation i felt was baseless. i should have been touched and overwhelmed. is it too late to tell you that now?
my mom likes you, you know. right from the very moment i told her about you and how you've stand up for your faith despite your young age. she doesn't remember some of my friends from highschool whom i've been friends with for ages. but she remembers you.
i'm amazed at how you are able to juggle your time for your studies, work, and obligations in the church.
when i asked about your love life, you joked about me not saying yes to you back in college. i normally would have let it just pass since you did say that it was a joke. but a part of me was bothered. maybe because i know, subconsciously, that if you were to "court" me now, it will be a whole different thing. back then, i didn't know the things i know now. i wasn't that experienced and learned when it came to relationships. not that i am an expert now, coz i still do have lots to learn. it's just that, now, i've become more appreciative of people around me knowing that they may be gone before you know it.
i would love to see you now and spend longer time sharing stories. i haven't seen you for like three years, i think. and we seldom did see each other the two years before that (when i was still in UP). i wonder if you still look the same, if you still talk the same way, if you still flashes your smile like you used to do. find time in your busy sched, ok? =)
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