hinatid namin si tita kanina sa airport. not a drop of tear fell from my eyes, while the rest of them cried when we were about to see her get inside the airport for her flight. hindi ako manhid. kabaliktaran nga ako nun eh, masyado akong emosyonal. yun nga lang, when it comes to my family and to most of the people i know, i hide those feelings. i keep this facade that fools a lot of people. i didn't cry kanina not because i won't miss tita. i will miss her. i remember the years i've spent in era with a visible/invisible chaperone everyday. i didn't cry because i know it wasn't goodbye. yes, she'll be staying there for three years and who knows she might even stay there for good. but i know she'd visit us here once she gets the chance. i know she'll miss us, and that she'll forever be part of our family.
i saw a bit of myself in allyssa today, i think. like me, she didn't cry. wala, ni hindi man lang ata siya naging teary-eyed. i don't know if days before tita's flight she did cry. but today, in the airport, she was quiet. she said goodbye to tita, she hugged her and kissed her. on our way home, she was quiet. all our questions were answered by a simple yes or a simple no or just a shrug. on our way back to manila from worship service, sabi ni mama bakit daw ganon si allyssa, di marunong magexpress ng emotions? bakit puro happiness lang daw..and it felt like she was describing me. so i guess, we really are sisters...
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